Sinister Dreams

When will the cloud in my head clear?
Stuck in the middle of a messy riddle.
Tongue twisters told me not to toy with my mind.
I have already wasted a thousand years and said “sorry” a million times.
Chasing you became a constant dream,
Waking up to find myself alone again.
Teary mattress covers over me.
Feels like Water board, feels like you’re torturing me.

Waiting foolishly in the wind because this is meant to be.
Waiting childishly in the rain because you are what I need.
What day is today? I’ve lost count in my misery.
Tick tock, the clock replaces the rhythm my heart once beat.
Now it’s a hollow space inviting dark thoughts and sinister dreams.

While I sleep I feel you kiss, but see your blood soaked teeth.
The night must have begun the loop has somehow started again.
Every day it gets worse I lose a parts of me.
I open my eye to find out that I can’t even see.
God as muted the world, for me it’s such a bliss.
Never feel so good to feel no more.
This is the way I leave.